Tuesday, August 16, 2011

When is it time to say goodbye?

I watched a clip on the news once about when the right time is to end a friendship. I thought long and hard about it, wondering if I needed to rethink some of my friendships and I've decided I do.
Sometimes people get too comfortable with each other. They get to the point where they know what you're going to say and you them, you stop trying to impress them because they already know you so well.. the fire that used to burn so hot has now turned to dying coals.
It's not that you stop loving them. God, no.. you don't stop loving them. But it's not worth trying to keep something alive when it just drains you so completely.
I've wasted so much time being jealous because everyone gets to hang out with you and I don't. And when we do see each other, we just sit.. wondering when the other is going to dismiss them. We've started to run out of things to do and work just isn't enough time.
I've started to wonder if we've only been friends this long because you can't have your animals at your house. Has it only been about that? Have I just been getting used this whole time?
No, I don't believe that. Even though you won't say it, I know you love me. And I love you.
That's why it makes it so much harder. After all, if you love someone you should try to work things out.
But if you really loved them, and it wasn't working out, you should let them go.
I just don't know what the right answers are anymore.
Love is hard, I know that. But love shouldn't cause jealousy, emptiness, resentment... we only see each other enough to say we've actually seen each other. We only talk about the obvious things. When you're not here, all I can think about is the problems I have with you.. but I can never talk to you about them because I never see you.
Friends are supposed to be there for each other in good times and bad. Now it's a bad time for you and I know I need to be there for you, so I am. But you just shut me out. The other problem is, lately, you haven't been there for me when I've needed you. You only ask me what's going on out of pure curiosity.. and you tell your mother all about it. The problem with that is she tells everyone else! I trust you beyond belief but the whole world doesnt need to know about my problems.
I guess this calls for a list.
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