Just as I'm supposed to be learning to love, you let me down again..

How can you love someone who does nothing but hurt you? How can you hurt someone that does nothing but love you? How is it fair that everyone I know get's to be with you and all I'm left with is the hope of a new picture.. that someone else got to be a part in..?

Love has no boundries and love has no rules. You take the pain because not loving them is impossible and trying will only make it hurt worse. Love has no on and off button. It just has to be.
"You hate someone whom you really wish to love, but whom you cannot love. Perhaps he himself prevents you. That is a disguised form of love.”
And that is why someone can hurt the people they love. They're afraid of being loved, they think they're undeserving of the love.. I don't really know. You just do. Because being there for them is all you can do.

I've never been one to hide my feelings away. I wear my heart on my sleeve so I really have no choice. You can't possibly think that I'm okay. You can't really think that all of this doesn't kill me inside.
I'm breaking apart and I've done everything I possibly can to tell you that.
I hate feeling like nothing I do will make you come back. I hate feeling like everyone in the world thinks badly enough about me to hide you away. I hate that everyone gets to see you but me.
I hate all of this.. but you already know that.

About me thingy.

--Maybe I'm a dreamer.
Maybe I''m misunderstood.
Maybe you're not seeing the
side of me you should.
I love you..
& all that jazz.
<3
The name is Mandy. Mandy Mae Dwyer to be exact. I'm 16 and ordinarily unique.
I find it hard to take people seriously these days. I'm quite shy and rather bland, but my love is one of a kind. If you make your way into my heart, you'll always have a place no matter how near or far you may be.
Anyone who really knows me, knows I'm a pessimistic person when it comes to life in general.The cup is always half empty and I'll always be a step behind. But, anyone who really knows me knows that I will be the first one there when you need a shoulder to cry on and a few kind words. And though I am a pessimist, I have no troubles finding the optimist in myself.
At times I'm mature beyond my age.. I'm irritatingly proper and always cautious. I don't like breaking the law and I would much rather read than do drugs. I hate confrontation but I'm not afraid to stand up for myself. And most of the time, that leaves me over-defensive or walked on.
But at other times, I'm the typical teenager. I mouth back to my parents, even though I know they don't deserve it. I listen to music with bad lyrics, I never clean my room, and I fail at school. I spend most of my time on the computer and the other part of my time hanging out with my family and friends. I like photography, reading, and makeup<3 I love hedgehogs and pretty much all animals.
I'm pretty low maintenance.. like a cat or a pet rock or something. lol. I don't get bored easily. Sitting in silence with my brain is enough to entertain me. I'm scared of heights and being in absolute nothingness. I don't like clowns or having my tv volume on an odd number. I'm always afraid of an alien standing outside my shower, a clown standing behind my door, a vampire outside my house and a witch watching me sleep.. yes, I'm weird like that. And yes, I really am afraid of all those things.
I make a lot of corny jokes and though most of the time I regret it.. and most of the time I don't do it intentionally.. I don't mind putting myself out there looking stupid if it'll make someone laugh. I'm VERY gullible so I'm easily to persuaded to let's say, give myself a mullet or saw off my bangs. ;)
I'm a weird person.
And because of that, I'm a very open person too. I will judge you. I'm human, and no matter how much we want to deny it, we ALL judge. But I promise that I will always give you a shot because I know what it feels like to have a lot to give but not a lot of places to go with it. (: 
-Books
-SunFlowers
-DrThunder
-Ithaca
-Family
-JohnWayne
-IndieBands
-Driving
-Weston
-September
-Chapstick
-Smoothies
-Twiggy
-Horoscopes
-HarryPotter
-Scrabble
-Babies
-Tater
-PetStores
-TheSims
-Photography
-EditedPhotos
-1920'sFashion
-SmileyFaces
-Makeup
-HedgeHogs
-HairDye
-Blogging
-CoverSongs
-Concerts
-Quotes
-Chillin
-InsideJokes
-BigBlankets
-Intellectual,IntimateConverstation
"Life's all but a game, and we control the winner. We are the narrator, the Hero, the Heroine, the victim, the helpless, savior or the saved. You choose the path you walk. Let no person influence you to do otherwise. This is your life, none others. Argue with me, curse me, spite me, love me, fight me. The difference is none to me. I am my own, not yours or theirs. I am but only one person. I'm not the person to change your life, you're not the one to alter mine."