Relationships.

Someone told me that I don't know what it's like to be broken up with. They're right. I don't.
I've never been in a real relationship.. so I don't know.
But they don't know what it's like to sit at home while all the people you care about are out on a date, having a blast, while you sit in your bed and write stupid blogs. They don't know what it's like to feel unwanted every single day of their life with no hope or possibility of that changing. They don't know what it's like to be ugly and fat, akward, 'just a friend'... anything. But I do.
I'm homeschooled. They only place I ever go is wal-mart and I already know everyone there. I'm not pretty so it's not like I can lure boys to me with my looks. And people don't ever take the time to really get to know me, and when they do take the time.. I'm just a friend.
No one ever asks me out and the ones that do aren't any one that I could see myself with, honestly. I'm not going to go out with some I have no intentions of being with for a long time. I don't want a stupid, four week relationship. I want something that will last for a long time, with someone I have fun with and someone that understands me.
So even if not many people ask me out, I wouldn't say yes anyways. And I don't think they get that...
I'm a kid. I don't need someone to make me feel good about myself, I already have enough confidence for that. I don't need someone to make me feel secure about myself, either.

And I definitely don't need someone tempting me to have sex and get pregnant... after all, the only safe sex, is no sex. (: