Why does it always feel like people want me to be unhappy with myself, just to feel better about themselves? I just don't get why everyone always feels the need to compare their lives with mine.. even though we live completely different lives.
No, I don't have a boyfriend. No, I haven't officially had one. And NO. I haven't kissed anyone or went further than that.
Why should that make me unhappy?
It used to be that you were always the one trying to make me feel better about myself, but now it seems like your the one always tearing me down.
I'm fine with my life. Even if I do secretely hope that my prince charming will walk into my direction and decide to complete my life, just for a little while. But if he doesn't, I'm fine.
I don't need someone to kiss me and hug me. I'm have more confidence in myself than that.. I know I'll still live and breathe the same exact way without a boyfriend than with.. well, maybe not all the time but still.
In serious terms, I will.
So why does it bother me so much that you think I should care?
Why do you want so badly for me to not feel the way I do?
Why do you want me to hate myself for not doing what you used to hate?
I don't know. And I don't care.
This is going to change a lot between us, but I refuse to sink to your level. I refuse to change because thats what is expected of me.
I refuse.
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