Random Jibberish Locked In the Closet of My Mind, and I'm Handing You the Key.

• First subject Why People Tell Other People To Text Them In Their Status'

Why do people do this?
I mean honestly, if people wanted to text you they would.
Plus, you have to go through all the hassel of giving people your number through comments and randomly getting stalked by creepers who see your number and decide they want to text you.

Creeper Man: Hey.
You: Who is this?
Creeper Man: _ _ _ _ _, what's up?
You: Wrong number!/Oh, I'm sorry... that didn't apply to you. Mmmm, bummer.

See, isn't that just an akward situation?
Basically what I'm trying to say is that if people have you on their mind and decide to text you, so be it. But you don't have to constantly want peoples attention/text messages by wasting good use of characters.

• Second Subject School.

Three more days till school starts. First year homeschooling on the computer, Second year as a freshman. It sucks. Not gonna lie. But whatever. Maybe I'll enjoy it more than regular school? Doubt it though.
But at least I get to take a psychology class. I'm pretty happy about that.
I just hope I can learn to navigate my way around and it doesn't prove to be more than I can handle.

• Third Subject People

One reason I'm glad I'm not going to school anymore is because people suck. I've always wondered what it'd be like when I died, but I already have a pretty good idea. It'd be just like it is now.
No one calls me. No one messages me. No one invites me places.
I'm just left at home by myself.
Granted when people do invite me somewhere I usually decline. Be it interfering plans or just plain fear of being with other people, it differs at times.
I guess being left alone with my brain has made it hard to go back to actually having some idea of a life.

What would you choose.
A) Having LOTS of friends, no real close friends, but lots of choices. And having places to go all the time and people wanting to hang out with you. And just being open. No shyness. Just a good time.
Actually trying to keep friendships and forgetting all the past and not getting so worked up about things.

or
B) Having one good friend and your family. No fear of being rejected or no fears at all. No faking. But being left alone alot, having everyone else having a life but you.

What would you choose?

Right now I'm B. I have an amazing friend and the best family I could ask for.
Do we all get along all the time? No. Of course not.
Most of the time I get mad over nothing and create situations in my head that make me angry and sometimes other people are mad at each other, but I'm happy. For the most part.

I don't have to be anything I'm not, I just go with the flow and accept things. I have someone to talk to about all my problems and someone to keep me sane.
But I've also pushed away everyone else outside my circle.
I don't try to keep contact with anyone.. mainly because they don't either.
I don't make plans with other people because I always back out last minute. My reasonings for that? The fact that I'm content at home and being with other people scares me.

But when I am with my old friends, it feels normal. I forget my problems and just have a good time.
They're like a chocolate bar after a strict diet.
But getting to that point, getting over my fear of rejection and being forgotten.. and akwardness, after all that I like it.
Even though having everyone else talking about memories I'm not included in and having common things to talk about isn't fun.

I've become an outsider. And I hate it.
but I don't know what to do anymore.

I just need a sign from someone that they want me in their life as much as I want them in mine. I just need someone to knock down the walls and help polish me up.

anyways,
it's late. And I need to go to bed. After all, school is only three days away. ;]
lol, who cares if I don't have to wake up till 10am. For me, that's early. xD

Forever Yours,
Mandy.

Why People Suck and How To Effectively Avoid the Stupid they contain. *Contains vulgar language and violent senarios, none of which I have ever commited or will commit. Hopefully*

People Suck.
We fight and steal other people's significant others. We spend countless amounts of money on lingerie and Guns. And most of all... we're stupid.

Not like "Dumb Blonde" stupid, but like "When I look at your face, I kinda want to stab myself in the eyes with an electric razor.. on high, in the shower, with shampoo running down my forehead." kinda stupid.
It's an ineveitable fact, PEOPLE ARE STUPID.

I mean, you know they're gonna be dumb...
But you also know bringing an electric razor in the shower is dangerous.. especially when you have shampoo running down your forehead.
 Shampoo in your eyes hurt in a normal case... imagine how it would feel after you took an electric razor to it!
Well let me tell you, it won't be no TepurPedic. That's for sure.

Back to the point, you know people are going to be stupid so why waste your time?
Maybe because standing next to a stupid person makes you feel superior and slightly more intelligant?
Maybe because they provide plentiful comedy?
Or maybe because in the end... you're pretty stupid yourself and being with other stupid people makes your stupidity.. alot more normal.

But then there are those people that are not only stupid but do things that just PISS.YOU.OFF.

I know you know that person.
The one that makes you pissed off just by seeing them. The one that you pretend to like because it's common courtesy. The one you invite to your birthday party because it's your parents idea. The one that intentionally tries to make your life a living hell....
that one.

There aren't really words for how they make you feel. Any emotions I usually feel while being annoyed by my "chosen person" are:
A) I REALLY want to throw myself into a pen of severely hungered lions, bears, hyenas and/or pirhanas, IF they have an extra tank available.
B) I wonder how long they'd give me since I'm a minor.... No. No, I mustn't.... Orange is sooo not my color.
And
C) Well, I think Pray for You  by Jaron and the Long Road to Love preeeeeetty much says it all. I don't go to church every Sunday but with you, I sure as hell will start.
Amen.

I'm sure you feel the same, you're just to scared to admit that the reason they fell down the bleachers was because you loosened the screw and put dish soap on the seat.
Yes, I know about that. And it's okay. They just got a few bumps and scratches... a few broken bones. Nothing serious.

But you still suffer the pain they inflict on you because nothing they could do, will make you break a nail punching the bitch.
just kidding. They're fake nails.
Or maybe if your one of those sensitive people, you probably can't tell by this but I am most days, and refuse to hit them or retaliate because you never know what is goin on in their home.
Money can't buy happiness, well.. neither can poor people, but if they were happy with their lives they wouldn't be making yours suck.

Now, 5 WAYS TO AVOID BECOMING A STUPID PERSON.

1. Be yourself. Although you might get bad grades and do alot of stupid things, being yourself isn't one of them.
2. Invest in a basement with lots of protective covering. Lock the doors and board the windows. They're stupid... they won't be able to think of much else to do. If all else fails, make the room circular and tell them there is lobster in the corner, salads for the lobster allergy victims and vegitarians.
3. Become a hermit. Buy a shell and some super glue.
4. Move to Antartica.. I heard the penguins are warm and are looking for new "roomies"
5. Don't do drugs.. it helps lessen your chance of losing what brain cells you do have.

So that is only some, if I write any more I might get carpul tunnel, of the reasons people are stupid and how to avoid being one yourself.


ps.
I'm not always this violent. Or sarcastic. Or rude. Or sick in the head.
But a good dose of sick humor is always nessasary.


Forever Yours,
Mandy.